The ultimate healing takes place at the roots. Have you been healed in the ultimate way?
Healing is the process of the restoration of health from an unbalanced, diseased, or damaged place.
I found out just how intentional God is and how much he truly wants his children to be healed from the inside out. This week I received my ultimate healing but it started by making a decision to be obedient. In September 2017 I went to God because I was fed up and said God I truly want to relinquish control to you fully and completely. I said I am willing to do it no matter the cost. Yes that meant even if I would have to do what others didn't approve of. I said God break me free of wanting to please people more than I want to please you. Not knowing at the time where the root of that even came from.
The next month he instructed me to leave my corporate job when so many around me didn't agree. It would have been easy to assume that I was healed at that moment from rejection which ultimately led me to please people but we hadn't even hit the surface yet.
Fast forward to October 2018, The Lord instructed me that he wanted me to do a 40 day fast starting November 1st. Now I'm not one to ever turn down a challenge from God but, I would be lying if I told you, that I jumped for joy at the thought of fasting for 40 days. He just kept reassuring me that this was going to be exactly what I needed to go to the next level in him. Especially during one of the biggest Holidays for eating, and not only eating but eating until you can't breathe,Thanksgiving.
Well, I DID IT! For 40 days I didn't have any solid food from 6am to 6pm and then only ate between 6:00-7:30 pm. It was probably the hardest thing I have ever done but I was committed, because I knew he challenged me to do it because he knew I could handle it. It also taught me that the false reality that people have, thinking healing won't be painful, tempt you, or make you question why you even started is a lie. A bold face LIE!
That fast changed my life and no it wasn't a whole bunch of monetary or materialistic manifestations but internally I was set free. There was so many harbored feelings down there that I thought I resolved that I didn't. But most importantly the root of my the people pleasing which came from my mother was down there and I had no idea. Out of nowhere people begin to say to me I am so proud of you for your accomplishments and I couldn't receive their compliments. I would say oh that is something small I still need to do more. I haven't even accomplished what so and so has. The Lord begin to reveal to me that it came from my childhood. That growing up I never felt like enough or like what I had done made my mom proud so I had to do more.
The funny thing is my mom was a great mom. But, because she raised me as a single mother for the majority of my life she pushed us never to settle to always strive for the next thing because she wanted me to be better than her. My mind on the other hand internalized that as not being enough and feeling like I needed to do more. And it all started because she would say I am proud of you but,. Never just I am proud. I thought it was so ironic that the thing she used to always have me critic myself for growth and good ending up planting the seed that made me want to be everything for everyone else instead of everything God called me to be. So during the fast The Lord instructed me to have this very very uncomfortable conversation with my mother and I did. The conversation went amazing she ended with I am proud of you just because and here I was again thinking I was fully healed. Yep. Nope
And I didn't have any idea until last weekend. My mother went to Philly with me for a speaking engagement which was so much fun. During the ride we decided to have a heart to heart and just catch up and I begin to just ball and ball and ball. My mother said what is wrong Destiny and unbeknownst to me words begin to just flow out of my mouth. These words led to a couple days ago. A couple of days ago I had my very first Prayerpy session with my mother. And finally I received my ultimate healing click play below to hear about it. God truly wants us to be healed and whole individuals but we have to stop asking why this and that and just commit to the process. But more importantly we have to be willing to commit to the process for ourselves and not because we don't know how so and so will respond or act when I dig more into my truth. Go get your healing for You and trust that God will do the work in them for them to be receptive when the time comes to bring it to their attention.
So I ask again have you been healed in the ultimate way or holding up the process by trying to figure out the how and the why? Comment below and let me know.
