Calm down and just Breathe?
Breathe is to take air into the lungs and then expel it.
I was so excited as I conquered what I believed was the last big storm in this place God currently had me. I was victory dancing inside and out. Little did I know but there was one more test around the corner. Especially, I because I got big and bad enough to add a fast to the mix.
Monday the Lord led me to fast with very specific parameters. To top it off a conference that I am attending in July is having a corporate fast as well and they did a corporate prayer session that I joined in on. Basically, I was getting buck with Satan letting him know when he thought I would fold I stood my ground. I may have been knocked down a couple times but I didn't stay down.
Well, let's just say he had one more punch in him and he wasn't afraid to use it. Tuesday morning waking up in expectation for what God was going to do now that I was fasting and over the storm. I wake up to my husband saying, "Destiny why in the world is our phones off?" Not realizing that this was actually what I was expecting but my expectation was all in my perception of what was happening in this moment.
I jumped out of bed, "WHAT?!!" "Stop playing they are taking the payment out on the 13th." "Destiny the only people my phone is reaching today is Verizon," he said sarcastically.
Confused, at what was going on. I knew I had one of two choices. Allow this to make me go into control mode and immediately try to fix it or go to my father and get a strategy before picking up the phone and calling them.
There is nothing we can do, Mrs. Thomas. Was all I heard even after going out of my way to email them a copy of the email they sent me. The one she could see was sent in the system. We can reactivate the lines but you would have to pay the reactivation fees, this fee and that fee. Basically a lot of money that the Lord has tied up right now. That doesn't appear in my accounts lol. (Yep I asked to speak to a supervisor and it went nowhere.)
I grabbed my bible, my journal and pen and ran for my office/shed. At first I tried to be cute with my prayers and the Lord said, "Girl stop playing with me and let it out" Why did he say that? "Lord what are you doing? I honestly feel like it is one thing after a another happening. Immediately an image came to my head as I was writing. An image of me on a raft or boat with God and as we got to the middle of the water. He told me to take off my life jacket and then just "PUSHED " me in the water. Good thing I had my braids in. LOL
I began balling, snotty nose and all. started to scream YES God that is exactly how I feel like you brought me all the way out here are letting me drown. I am your daughter and thought you would never abandon me but I feel real abandoned, real abandoned. This water is overtaking me, arms are tired, I am cold and the water is getting in my lungs. I can't last too much longer. HELP!! HELP ME! WHERE ARE YOU FATHER?" I'll do whatever it takes . Please just give me a sign that you want me to continue down this path without a 9-5 job. Lord I just want to be in your will even if that means my phone will be off and stay off. I just want to know I am where you want me to be right now and that this is just apart of the process. JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! HELP!
Immediately I heard God say there it is. I need you to let it all out. In the most calm and still voice he said, "You are fine my girl stop looking in the natural. I am right here with you. Just breathe get out of panic mode and get your breathing pattern right like I taught you. (God taught me a breathing technique during a rigorous exercising season a few years back)
The image reappeared of me getting my breathing together. As I was getting my breathing together peace immediately fell over me in the image and physically. He then put out his hand and begin to lead me back to the raft. I got you baby. Stay calm at all times and just breathe. I have you. I told you I am preparing you for a new thing! This is apart of that.
He then proceeded with the strategy of what to do next with my previous provider. It ended with me having to change providers and my phone number that I've had since middle school but he was in it every step of the way. He was preparing me for a new thing including my number. So look at him giving me exactly what I was in expectation of that morning.
Are you still frantic or are you calm, using the breathing technique?
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