ARE YOU SURE YOU ARE NOT DEPRESSED?
Depression is to have feelings of severe despondency and dejection.
Here we are again with another super transparent and vulnerable email. So please bare with me.
About two weeks ago I found myself not wanting to pick up my phone, not wanting to respond to text messages and just wanting to be locked in my room in my bed sleep. At first I didn't think much of it other than my body needed to rest. But, as the days continued to go on it started to roll into my priorities. Like if I miss this class it is only one class and why cook tonight we can have fast food.
I also found myself being really hard on myself. Saying things like you have been at this for over a year now and you haven't achieved this or you have been in school for this long and still don't have your bachelors. I started word by word tearing myself down and everything I accomplished whether big or small didn't matter. I was journaling daily and God was reassuring me that I was right where he wanted me but that I started to get distracted by the noise which was leading me into DEPRESSION and I needed to shut it all down and just spend time with him and be refilled.
Coming from him it sounded like such an easy fix however even while he was saying this I had text message after text message filling my phone, a call coming through that was urgent, missed DMs and messages on social media, my son asking can he play with my phone, my husband asking what is for dinner and at least two or three assignments due or coming due within 24 hours. How Jesus? How do I shut it all down when it seems like everybody needs me and needs me now??
You just shut it down. Start dinner early, give KJ your phone so you won't be able to see who is calling or needs your assistance and give me two to three hours. Come lay at my feet and pour it all out on me. So I did as I was told and told my husband I was going into prayer. I locked myself in my room and as Psalms 40:1-3 says, I waited patiently for for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. In other words he gave me my WHOOOOOLE LIFE!
So, I ask again are you sure you are not depressed? Have you been slowly but surely moving yourself into isolation? Ignoring phone calls? Just wanting lock yourself in a room and sleep?
Comment below and be honest.
